"Ambition nevers come to an end."

School Reopen

2008-10-13T07:11:00.000-07:00

Time passing veri fast oreadi 13 oct. Sch reopen. First day the lesson make me damn tried... Then how to hand on for rest of the semester.

Boring

2008-10-02T22:34:00.001-07:00

Haiz. Recently staying at home all day. Never being stepping out of sengkang area. Damn how come i have this type of life. Realli nothing to do or nowhere to go. sick and tired of this... HELP, HELP. Any recommedation to me where can go to have fun....

Thing does not went well

2008-09-25T12:00:00.000-07:00

Tuesday, went to interview for the F1 Event Assistant, the interviewer ask wait for the call that i was shortlisted but i waited for a few day but i did not receive any call. Then i went to search for another job on the jobcentral but i found one is on temp admin at Changi Cargo Complex for 2 weeks actually it nice timing for me to work before school reopen. I have send my resume to the person and now, it jus wait for the call liao. Hope they will employ me. God Bless me.

Wednesday, at nite went jogging which my buddy shi xiang at the open field near Bangkok MRT station. For the first time, i have run so big round. After, the run i feel veri tired but kind of relieve stress.

Hai. Actually i don't like my family anymore for a veri long time liao. Because i'm the youngest in the family itself. They always force me to do something that i don't like. And because i have lost my job that i veri hard that found it. and now, again looking for a job it seem like looking for a needle in the ocean. Actually, that why i don't like to talk or speak to them.

HATE THEM THAT THEY CALL ME TO DO SOMETHING THAT I DON'T LIKE!!!!!!!!

SOMETHING PISS ME OFF

2008-09-17T09:26:00.000-07:00

First Piss off:
My exam result out oreadi and i manage to pass PLaw but i fail my econ again. That make me veri F*** lor.

Second Piss off:
My family make me veri piss off and now, my relationship with my family is become worst. I now tend to don't like them. And i realli don't wanna to talk to them anymore.

Fear

2008-08-23T10:26:00.000-07:00

Finally finish exam... time to relax and for is having a lot of fear about the outcome the result... Maybe is fate..

scare reject when i confront

2008-07-18T08:37:00.000-07:00

I have say in the previous post that i have deeply fall in love with someone. But i realli very comfront my feeling towards her but i was shy and scare she will reject my feeling. I am very sure that she is the one because i have a dream last night and this dream is about her. What can i do? anyone can help...

2008-06-08T19:13:00.000-07:00

I getting too much pressure oreadi and now my heart is feel wierd and unwell.

Sick of what i doin...

2008-06-08T07:40:00.001-07:00

I oreadi ready to stop i doing maybe this is fate again... Hai... Realli veri shock about the thing happen recently... It is better to let them go.... By the way, they are useless....

Oop....

2008-06-06T23:03:00.000-07:00

Oh no... I think i'm deep fall for her...

How!!!

Finally

2008-06-04T18:08:00.000-07:00

Finally, nightmare are gone for a while. Hai.... As say "there are a fine day after a rain day" and for me is "there are a rain day after is a disaster"... Todae, jus finish my nightmare but another nightmare is coming onto me veri soon.

Now, i think is it is fate that i will end my chapter and began another new chapter of my life...

So starting to decide what to do next and where to go next...

2008-06-03T12:46:00.000-07:00

Seek the way out from the dark... But no one give their help hand.... Haiz....

Starting / Ending

2008-06-02T21:23:00.000-07:00

I have been hiding in the dark by myself.... I have always been find an answer for my problem but always seem to been going round and round. So common test is oreadi started and i have ending two paper, one is SBR (Security Management & Business Recovery) and my greater fear of all is TEC ( Theory of Economics). And i have another greater fear is PLaw (Principle of Laws). So 2 down 4 to go. I oreadi go up to my limit, and oreadi reach beyong the limit liao.

The answer that i trying to find.

1. Is polytechnic is unfair to the student, why they onli give two chances to those who fail the second time, and why they treat us like low class people (Examples like they wanna our parent to beg them then they will allow those who fail the second time continue to study on).

2. Is there a realli need test and exam to understand the module.

3. Why we don't have the right to speak up for the education in school.

Maybe i cannot find the answer anymore because i dunno whether i have the chances to contiune to study or i will be kick out by school. Maybe another is that it is fate that plan for us the god...

Hope to see the positive result...

2008-06-01T12:53:00.000-07:00

Finally, i hold my tear for so long and the tear start dipping from my eyes. Realli veri veri stress, fear and worry. This is the kind of feeling that i stay in.

Stress - I stressing over the common test whether can do well or not.

Fear - I fear about the repeated module Laws and Economics.

Worry - I worry that if don't do well in the common test than it will affect my final result. whether i will be kick out of the school or not.

giving up

2008-05-11T00:57:00.000-07:00

I'm very very tired... Giving up soon.... How... Who's going to give me an answer?

release my unhappiness

2008-04-20T18:04:00.000-07:00

( It worth to watch it)

Yesterday, after the grading. we decided to go to watch movies at downeast but in the end noboday is going. So i call xiang and lucky he is on the way back to his base camp after his shift. Then ask him whether he wanna to go and watch movies. Then we caught "Doomsday".... After the movies, we went home straight.

HARD DECISION

2008-03-17T17:55:00.000-07:00

My exam result out liao. I look at the result and look veri bad... After that i veri depress on the result and where to do or go next lor... i realli veri confuse. My mind only have two way.
1st - go NS
2nd - contiune to study

Realli dunno wat to do....

CONFUSE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Prepration for physical fitness

2008-03-05T23:43:00.000-08:00

On monday, Hanli went to queenway shopping centre to buy my trackshoe. And went for running at ngee ann stadium but Hanli receive a job and he need to go for interview so we decided to do our running at queenway stadium and we went to the stadium but the stadium is closed so we have no choice have to go home and we decided to go on tuesday.

On tuesday, we went running at ngee ann studium. Because i long time nv run so i start on slow jog. I jog abt 6-7 rounds until veri tired. I wanna Hanli to prepare my physical fitness onli and prepare for my NS too

Dream Job

2008-02-25T12:18:00.000-08:00

This is my dream job, " Police Tactical Unit (PTU) / Police MRT Unit (PMU)/ Nighbourhood Police Officer". Hope to be in this unit. Cool man.

hurray

2008-02-24T11:57:00.000-08:00

Jus finish the exam a few days ago, the exam that i cannot properly imagine the exam result. Because the last two paper is a totally disaster for me. i'm totally veri confuse now, because i dunno whether what i going to do next? I have many advise from other and i have my plan too, dunno what to follow. I have to say that see how the result lor. If the result is veri bad than i will not contiune and go join the police lor, if the result is not bad, i will contiune lor. Jus that how hard i goin to study, once i step into the exam area i will forget everthing lor. Maybe this is what call exam anxiety. HAIZ... This is my last shoot for the semester.

this is my shot

2008-02-21T12:09:00.000-08:00

i have been think clearly that maybe this is my last sem in ngee ann. Decide to join the police force as a career and beside i will be studying part time course when i am in the police force...

Haiz...

2008-02-17T18:53:00.000-08:00

realli study veri hard but the words cannot go into my brain. i think it should the end of the study life in poly. i have been thinking this problem. Maybe a new life waiting for me. Yesterday, i chat with my old time buddy shi xiang, he's doing well in the police force, hope to join him soon...

Time to have war again

2008-02-14T17:17:00.000-08:00

Haiz... Realli did not enjoy my chinese new year much lor because the exam is held during the new year period. damn sia. I hate to say and imagin the outcome of the exam. If the outcome of the exam is not good, and may or may not to say goodbye... To all, good lucky for your exam.

Lost in the poly education world

2008-01-17T19:30:00.000-08:00

Haiz... i'm realli depress on my education. Because i realise that other people from other polytechnic having a easy time and i have a hard time on my study... Now who can tell me what to do next... I realli lost...

End of 2007 and Start of 2008

2007-12-31T10:00:00.000-08:00

One more day to end of 2007. during the year of 2008 realli have a bad start in study and life and could not image. Let me talk abt how bad in my study, realli did not focus well and did bad for my study, jus tell myself that jus do my best and in life realli realise that i still miss my old time and old time buddy. realli because of a misunderstanding that break our friendship up and in my heart still realli treat as a friend and buddy and dunno whether they still treat me as a friend and buddy or not realli feel lonely without them... haiz... take it easy lor... and i realli very tired of this, i wanna to rest.

In 2008, i wish that my study can do well and my classmate will united as one. my old time friend and old time buddy can do well in their respective thing now they doing and being health. that what i can do..

LET LOOK FORWARD IN 2008

LET COUNTDOWN FOR 2008

Giving up

2007-12-09T12:02:00.000-08:00

Haiz... I don't know how to describle abt the common test. I have bastard my Law paper... Feeling like giving up my study because i have study so hard for this paper but once i went into the Hall and my mind is blank and i could not think abt the thing i have study and the entire paper, i have written rubbish. Spending so much time in the day and night jus to study this topic.. feeling so down and lost... I now realli restless and tired... anybody can advice me wat to do...

Finally Finish

2007-11-25T02:59:00.000-08:00

I recently in attenting a course for 3 weeks. This 3 week is realli veri veri hard for me because the training make me veri exhausted and still have to teach lesson. But i get praise the examiner for my hard work for the lesson plan. So it finally came to the end of the course.

Stress Semester

2007-11-24T01:35:00.000-08:00

This semester is veri different from the last semester, this semester is realli veri stressful... I'm all work out. Do not have any energy for other thing liao. Realli don't realli understand what my class thinking. Haiz... I trying very hard to be bonded with them but the result realli seen very negative lor. What i suppose to do.

2007-03-27T06:05:00.001-07:00

1. - Life's greatest enemy is oneself.

2. - Life's greatest failure is arrogant.

3. - Life's greatest ignorance is dupe.

4. - Life's greatest sorrow is jealousy.

5. - Life's greatest erroneous is self-abandon.

6. - Life's greatest admiration is choice of advancing.

7. - Life's greatest insolvent despair.

8. - Life's greatest wealth is healthiness.

9. - Life's greatest gift is fogiveness.

10.- Life's greatest pitiable disposition is self-abased.

11. - Life's greatest sin is to deceive oneself.

12. - Life's greatest liabilities is a debt of human sympathy.

13. - Life's greatest imprefection is melancholy wisdom.

14. - Life's greatest gratification is alms.

True or Not

Adapt in New Sch and Life

2007-03-21T09:04:00.000-07:00

This few day, i was busying with my enrolment. Have a lot of thing to prepare like purchase a notebook for myself. Now i still searching a notebook the suit me. Haiz... Having a hard time. I need to adapt poly life and new friends again...

About Me

2005-12-31T12:00:00.000-08:00

NAME: CHAN WAI HON (DARREN)
PINYIN: CHEN WEI XIONG (衛雄)
D.O.B: 29/06/1987
OCCUPTION: STUDENT
AFFILIATIONS: ACME TAEKWONDO AND SINGAPORE TAEKWONDO FEDERATION
SCHOOL: May Primary School ( closed down), Compassvale Secondary School, Institute of Technical Studies( East), Ngee Ann Polytechnic

WHO I WANNA TO MEET: A GAL THAT CAN STOP THE RAIN AND CAN TURN MY WORLD FROM BLACK TO WHITE.